| wow im so stupid... lmfao im reading over my pervious entries and im like "omqz!!! ZAC<333" whatever.. i'm very much so over that bullshit
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| I SLEPT sorta.. LAST NIGHT
i was on the phone with zac and i was ridiculously tired and hes like "lets go to sleep" so we get off the phone.. and then i couldn't fall asleep! but i think i fell asleep at 12:30 and woke up at about 11. it was delicious!!!
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| last night i slept.. hoorah! i think i finally fell asleep in the early part of the 12 hour. niceness to the extreme of niceosity. it felt good to wake up this morning.. as opposed to already being awake from a restless night.. or should i say restless nights since its been practically a week.
so practically no complaints from my front.. although this no sleep thing has caused some negativity ((beside my being tired all the time)). i have developed an acne problem. i think i've maybe gotten one or two pimples in my entire life and now i have acne.. or maybe i'm just getting my period again.
ughhhhhhhhh but on the brightside.. only a few more days until i go down to seaside to visit darla.. and when i return it will only be a little while before i see zac again! thats exciting i must say. i can't believe i'm updating my xanga.. i guess it is for my benefit and my benefit only seeing as no one reads this crap anymore.. but you know what? i'm not really interested in comments and whatnots because i just.. well.. i have nothing left to say.
toodles!
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| i got really distressed when i saw that that entry was from friday- i was all " i didn't write an entry today!! wtf is this shit?"
then i realized i wrote it very early this morning.. i'm too tired to function. i didn't even know it was friday anyway-
all the days feel the same.. like one big day- seeing as i never go to sleep and i'm never really awake. i bet people who are suicidal feel this way. lucky for me.. i value my life enough not to let it get to me.. or at least not just yet.
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| okay so for awhile.. and by awhile i mean the first good 14 years of my life, i had a lot of trouble sleeping.. but then for the past few months i've been able to sleep perfectly fine- and now i can't sleep at all. i haven't slept since i think monday. i sleep for maybe a half an hour each day.. but i'm not sleeping- i kind of doze off or zone out with my eyes open. it's so creepy. nothing seems real. i'm not really tired- but i wouldn't exactly go out and run a mile. i'm having a really cracked up conversation with nina. i'm not really sure what it's about or where it's going.. and i don't think i really care.
okay to read a very.. bizarre exerpt from our conversation go to my myspace
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